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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 29, 2011 18:26:59 GMT -5
cover to coverI strolled through the rotating doors of Richmond Library. I loved the place to death. The smell of old and new books, and the still silence of pages turning and one intake of breath followed by another, and building into a chorus of humanism. It was so hard for even me to be sarcastic here. So hard for me to be rude, surrounded by knowledge and words. Stories, all but forgotten, and words, all yearning to see a new face. I remembered the times Jessica and I had spent in this very library, quietly laughing at our criticism over the books. I remembered the smell of her strawberry shampoo, and the color of her eyes. Green, stunningly, startlingly green... Then I caught sight of a reflection of me, looked at my own eyes, and found myself thinking of the night before last, when we had kissed. Those warm, chocolate eyes still boring into my soul, even without him here. He's not here right now, Xi. I thought, half bitterly, and half-relieved. Bitterly because we could not stand in such close viscinity here, while he was somewhere else. Relieved because we weren't able to be so close when he was elsewhere. The gravity of that emotion was so unsettling. The compulsion, the urge to be as close to him as possible. I loved that feeling, but it was unnerving to...need him like that. I shook the thoughts out of my head. I was here for one thing, and one thing only. And that was to read. To be forced into a world with no gods, or demigods, and no secrets. Just a perfect, open world. So I went right along to the fantasy section and grabbed the first thing my hands found. As it turned out, I'd already read this book. But I sat down on one of the lounging couches, and hunched into myself, and read without hesitation. 319, deadmau5, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 29, 2011 18:57:56 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective Axel made his way to the library, he loved books. He had his own small library at his house but here he could be surprised. At home he knew all the titles and story's, he could name all the characters and plot lines. He looked around and smiled at the people reading or studying. He loved the silence of the library and the smell of a good old book. He stepped farther into the library and picked up one of the books on those small tables that they set out to grab your attention. He thumbed through it and skimmed a page or two. He decided he wasn't interested in wizards and knights. He put it back and wandered up and down the isles looking at the shelves closely.
He pulled down a book and read the back cover it was about an alternate world that connects to the modern world. He decided that he would read it and looked for a place to sit. He saw someone on the couch reading and he thought he was cute. He decided to sit on the couch but not to close. She he made his way carefully over to the spot where he was going to sit and he sat. He opened the book and pretended to read at first, wanting to look at the guy next to him. He wondered what the guy was reading. He seemed bored and so Axel figured he had already read the book.
Axel smiled behind the book because this guy was attractive, with a very angelic or god-like-ness. Axel started to read the book so he sat in silence for a bit before gaining the courage to speak. "Hey..." He was turning red behind the book and he wanted to laugh. He dint want this guy to figure things out because then he might kick Axel's ass.
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 29, 2011 19:26:45 GMT -5
cover to coverI noticed after no longer than one-hundred-ninety-two-point-four seconds that someone had come to sit with me. I glanced at him. He was attractive, with long, thick brown hair and light-colored eyes. He was tan, and incredibly muscular for a guy of his age. Pink lips and colored cheeks contrasted with his muscular appearence. The guy was dressed in a decorated black t-shirt, blue jeans, and black converse. I was gay enough to notice that he was incredibly attractive, but attatched enough to shy away from the prospect of asking him out. "Hey..." He said in a timid, shy voice. It showed signs that it would be very attractive if it didn't sound as nervous as it did. Rather than ignore him, I set my book down, and turned towards him, bringing myself minutely closer to him. "Hi." I replied in a quiet, but strong voice. "I'm Xi. And you are?" I held a hand out to him, and waited for a reply. 162, hail the villain, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 2:13:26 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective
Axel blinked his brown eyes at the cute boy that acknowleged him. "Im Axel...Its nice to meet you Xi." He looked at his book then set it down, he dint care what page he was on. They guy sounded just as shy as him. Maybe he was gay too. Axel smiled and racked his brain for things to talk about. "What brought you in here today?" He waited for a responce when he realized that this guy had a seriously cute voice. He wondered if this guy had a girlfriend or if he WAS gay then he probably has a boyfriend. But Axel might still try. He loved looking at cute guys and plenty of them talked to him but none of them he ever figured as gay.
Axel moved an inch closer and placed his hands in his lap. He had his face turned toward Xi and his hair fell into his face. He looked at it then jerked his head to the left making his hair swing out of his eyes. He smiled at Xi and he knew he had a great smile. One was because he praticed in the mirror and two he whitenedd his teeth. His father wanted his son to be clean and well kept but he wasent bossy about it and his mother wouldent let him out of the house if he dint look his best all the time. God Xi is cute. I wish I met more guys like him...That were gay. Axel looked towards the book he saw Xi put down. "What are you reading?"
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 8:20:19 GMT -5
cover to cover"What brought you here today, Xi?" Axel asked me in that same light, polite, and adorable voice. "We're in a library." I pointed out. "I don't think there's too much to do here." I gave Axel a wry smile and looked him over. He had a very adorable face for a guy of his physique. Complimented with a narrow jawline, a sizeable pink mouth, and a drape of brown hair, incredibly close to the color of my eyes. I would've totally dated him if I wasn't otherwise occupied in that department. I managed to snap away from my staring for long enough to hear Axel's next question, just after he flipped his long brown hair; "What are you reading?" Axel was smiling at me. With dazzling, brilliant white teeth and a perfect, subtly kind smile. I moved myself a little bit closer to him, and picked up the book I had been reading. "Harry Potter." I said. "I find it sort of...entertaining to read all of the gibberish they put in it." I smiled at Axel, knowing full well that my strawberry full lips, though stretched wide, were still perfect, full, and bright red, like that fake blood you saw in old movies. 204, deadmau5, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 14:55:58 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective "There are books. I mean I guess you came here to read or study. But sometimes I like to come here for the quiet." Axel looked closely at Xi. His lips were full and red, they looked totally kissable but he wouldn't dare. He did not need to get kicked out of the library and then beaten up afterward. He looked at Xi's eyes and noticed that his hair was almost the same color. He wanted to just swim in his eyes but he looked away just in time to hear the book title.
Harry Potter huh? Well I don't think its gibberish. "I haven't read the books, I have only seen the movies... He blushed because he started thinking about Daniel Radcliffe. "That kid who plays Harry Potter...Hes...Uh... Axel coughed and looked at his lap and made his voice deeper. "He is a good actor." Thats what a straight man would say right? Crap I probably just fucked everything up... Axel rubbed his eyes and looked at Xi with a joking grin. "Its not like hes cute or anything. That Emma Stone chick is cute." He did think she was cute, but he wasn't attracted to her. And he did think Daniel Radcliffe was an ok actor but he was totally drool worthy.
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 15:07:21 GMT -5
cover to cover"It's not like he's cute or anything. I think that Emma Stone chic is cuter." Axel said in a slightly more confident voice. "I'd agree, except that Emma Stone isn't in Harry Potter." I said, smiling wryly, and scooted closer to Axel. "Daniel Radcliffe's not unattractive to me." I added the last words in a subtly hinting tone, and smiled again. I could feel an urge to just tackle-hug this guy build up, but it was beaten down by my conscious thoughts. Yeah, I thought sarcastically. A tackle in the middle of a library. that won't attract attention. My hand twitched infinidecimally to Axel, but he might not notice. Instead, I realized that I was just under a foot away from Axel. Kissing distance. I almost backed away. Instead, I remained firmly planted there, and smiled at Axel without showing my teeth. 142, paramore, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 15:48:09 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective Axel looked at the short distance between himself and Xi. When Xi said that he thought Daniel Radcliff was attractive he pulled his gaze back up. He looked into Xi's eyes and smiled happily. "He is kinda cute..." Now he was sure that Xi was gay so he relaxed instantly. His hand moved towards Xi's and he dint even notice. His fingers brushed Xi's lightly before he pulled away. He kept looking into Xi's deep brown eyes, they were such a warm kind brown. "Can I ask you something?" His voice droped to a sudective whisper and moved his hand again. He dint touch Xi this time but he let his hand stray close enough that is Xi wanted to he could touch his hand. He wanted to ask if Xi was gay but he wasent sure if the words would come out. He might just get lost in Xi's adoriably handsome face. Those brown eyes and red lips, the tapered jaw and straight nose. His face was like a work of art.No man could ever look this good and be human, but somehow his can...
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 16:06:01 GMT -5
cover to cover"He is kinda cute..." Axel said quietly. I wasn't incredibly surprised to hear these words escape Axel's lips. I barely noticed Axel's fingers brush my own, and then disappear. The contact was so surprising that it felt like electricity running through my veins. It was strangely pleasant, and horribly familiar. Pleasant because his fingers were warm and soft. Pleasant because I didn't mind it. Familiar because this exact sensation had happened not two days previously. Horrible because it shouldn't have. I shouldn't have that feeling for anyone apart from Zac. No one. Even as amazing and godlike as Axel. "Can I ask you something?" Axel asked me. "You just did. But you can ask another." I laughed softly to him. Axel's hand strayed close to mine. Maybe an inch apart. My eyes flicked down to it, but returned to Axel's eyes just as quickly. I was temporarily lost in the light brown of his eyes. 142, paramore, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 18:27:10 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective His fingers tingled from when he touched Xi. He had touched plenty of people, hugs, hand shakes, friendly back pats but he never felt this way afterward. He sucked in a deep breath and looked into Xi's eyes. He was really going to do this. ""Xi...Do you think I'm gay?" He held his breath and waited. He wanted him to say yes. He wanted a friend that would understand him. He wanted to be himself.
While he waited he tried to think of other things besides Xi's eyes. He tried to think about books, school, graduation. But every time his mind kept bringing up Xi. He had never had a first kiss. Girls would try to kiss him and they would ask him out. He would say yes but he would never kiss his girlfriends or touch them outside of being friends. They usually got bored and called him a freak. He always told them he was waiting for marriage. He knew that would never happen, on account of him being gay but that seemed to work ok when the girls wanted sex.
He pulled himself out of his thoughts before they entered the gutter. He smiled softly and sang New Perspective by PANIC! At The Disco in his head. Then giggles because the song was not so secretly dirty, plus Jennifer's Body was funny as hell.
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 18:45:33 GMT -5
cover to cover"Xi, do you think I'm gay?" Axel asked. I kept my focus firmly on his brown eyes. The honest answer was yes. But what would I have cared, being practically the same? What damn did I have to give about sexuality? Because of the cuts scattered around my body? Cuts long healed, and still bleeding? No. I didn't care if Axel was gay. I wouldn't have cared if he was a triple-breasted tarantula from Mars. Either way, Axel was still Axel, no matter what form he was in, and no matter how his mind worked. I put my thoughts away from this monologue, and returned my attention to Axel's wide, innocent eyes. "I've learned better than to make assumptions." I said slowly. "But the way you act is...interesting. Yeah, that's the word. It's nothing to do with sexuality, or who you are. It's still you, no matter what. I wouldn't care if you were." I smiled at Axel, and let my hand find his. A million thoughts and half-formed questions filled my mind; What the hell was I doing? Why the hell was I doing it? Where the hell was my brain? And, more importantly, why couldn't I find it in myself to want to stop comforting this total stranger? 211, paramore, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 19:35:43 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective Before he could think he squeezed Xi's hand that was now in his. His eyes filled with tears and his smile got wider. Xi accepted him, he dint care. Finnaly someone that dint have to care like his mother, knew. He whispered a quiet "Thank you." And moved closer to Xi. He hugged him quickly then pulled away. His hand found Xi's once more and held it. People were ignoring the town guys on the couch, but Axel still dint want or need any rumors spreading around town. Even if those rumors ended up beaing the truth.
Axel dropped his head and let a few tears fall. He sniffled wuietly and wiped his eyes quickly. Was he sad? No. He was happy. Finnaly someone knew and understood and accepted him. He wouldent get his ass kicked by Xi, he found someone he could confide in. He hoped that they could become really good friends and maybe something more. But even if they only stayed friends that would be good enough for Axel. He was happy.
He looked back up at Xi and rainged in his smile. He laughed softly and let out a sigh of releif. "Your a good person Xi. Im glad that I decided to come in here today. Your the only one besides my mother who knows. Promise you wont tell anyone?" He held his breath again. He figured that Xi wouldent tell if he asked him not to but you never know.
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 20:13:06 GMT -5
cover to coverI felt Axel's hand tighten around my own for a brief moment. He was smiling and tears were in his eyes. "Thank you." Axel said quietly. He moved close to me, and gave a brief hug to me. Shocked, I put my arms around him and held for a second. When Axel pushed away, I was blushing slightly, and his hand was still in mine. Did I want him to? Not exceptionally. Did I particularly care that he did? Not really. So I held it between us, just behind our backs, but not uncomfortably so. Axel let a few tears escape his eyes, and wiped them off. One of them, however, he had missed. So I put my hand on hs face and quickly but gently wiped the tear off. It was a gesture I used only to say "I'm here for you." to people. "Your a good person Xi. Im glad that I decided to come in here today. Your the only one besides my mother who knows. Promise you wont tell anyone?" Axel asked when he started smiling again. "Of course not." I said, and smiled to Axel, pulling our intertwined hands out from behind us, and laying them, still not visible to anyone, between my right leg and his left leg. 214, keane, axel, concenrated,
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Post by Axel Smith on Jul 31, 2011 20:44:46 GMT -5
stop there and let me correct it , i wanna live a life from a new perspective Xi promised not to tell. Axel grined and squeezed his hand in a thankful gesture. His cheek stil felt warm from where Xi wiped away a tear that he had missed. There hands were between them, and still conected. He worried that Xi was uncomfterable but Axel's mind was swimming.
He won't tell. Im safe. And now I have a friend. He is really cute but what if he has someone...I would never distroy someones happyness for my own. But I want to kiss him. He hasent pulled away from me so does that mean he thinks im cute too? Does he like me? I hope he stays my friend. He is a great person and did I mention cute? Haha. But when he hugged me back..Did I feel something or did I want to feel something? God I hope I dont fuck anything up.
Axel sighed and smiled at Xi. "I hope we can become good friends." He decided to let Xi decide. It was eaiser for both of them this way. Becides Axel was always terriable at decision makeing. He always made the wrong one or someone would get mad because he was takeing to long to decide. He decided he would just keep talking for now.
"So what kind of music do you like? What are some of your hobbies?" Axel decided that if they did become good friends then he would have to know something about Xi other than his obvious attractiveness. But again Axel started to get lost in thought and lost in Xis face and the sheer joy of getting to be all of himself and not half of himself.
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Post by Xi Coleman on Jul 31, 2011 21:26:14 GMT -5
cover to coverI felt Axel's hand tighten once more. I couldn't tell what he was thinking to save my life. Normally, it was evident on someone's face or in their eyes what was on their mind. But Axel's thin face gave away, his eyes sparkling in a perfectly normal manner. I barely heard him say he hoped we could be good friends. Whether this meant that Axel didn't like me or just didn't want to push me, I didn't know. And I didn't care. I liked him. I only wished it was enough. "so what kind of music do you like? what are some of your hobbies?" Axel asked. "Well, I like almost every kind of music. Except for country music. Can't stand it. Well, I'll make an exception for Rascal Flatts, but that's about it. My favorite song is Iridescent by Linkin Park." I said quietly, shifting our hands slightly. "As for hobbies...well, I'm lazy. I won't even go to the trouble of denying it. I guess the most athletic thing I do is sing. And it's not much of a hobby, since I can so rarely do it now. I really don't like sports. They're exhausting just to watch." I smiled, and leaned slightly on Axel's shoulder. 208, plain white t's, axel, concenrated,
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