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Post by Semper Capone on Aug 27, 2011 14:16:33 GMT -5
In a way I was glad that she said she didn't need any money, but that's being selfish. I was willing to give her whatever she needed to be comfortable. "I'll be here for y'." I told her, and I meant it. Whatever choice she made, I'd back it up. Except abortion. I would not stand for that, though I doubted she'd go that route, or else I'd go off on a rant about how abortion is inhumane to a human being. But still, I doubted she would do that. "When did y' figure out that y' were... er... in the state that yer in?" I then asked, being sure to keep my voice down and still trying to avoid direct eye contact with her out of sheer guilt.
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Post by Tamara George on Aug 27, 2011 14:51:03 GMT -5
"...thanks," She said shifting somewhat awkwardly although she did still appreciate it, really she did. Half the fear was centred around being left to lumber with it all by herself and the knowledge that he'd still be there soothed her.
"A month and a bit," She said somewhat grimly before she gave a small half laugh.
"You know I think I just about proved everyone right, even if I did finish school first, pregnant right out the starting blocks. I've never wanted children...I still don't know about this but...I didn't even think about NOT keeping it when I found out, it didn't even cross my mind, I just...unlikely as it sounds, I always imagined having kids with someone I loved, if at all. I had this perfect family mapped out, andwe would have loved each other and sure, the kid'd be a surprise but it wouldn't matter eventually...it doesn't matter now though," She shrugged, speaking to no one in particular as she just stared at floor beside the booth.
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Post by Semper Capone on Aug 27, 2011 15:57:04 GMT -5
She's that far along? Damn. And not only that, but she went on to tell about how she had wanted to settle down with someone she loved, which obviously wasn't me. And there I went, throwing a damn wrench into the spokes of the wheel and wrecking the whole dream. If I didn't feel bad before, I felt like a possum that'd been run over too many times on the road now. Her dream, for now, was as good as dead as mine is.
"If... if y' don't want t' keep it, I'll take it." If she was considering abortion, again, I was going to go off on her about the ethics of it, regardless of the state she was in. But seriously, if she didn't want to keep the kid, she could just go spend about two years at her home in England and then I could just go over and get the kid and bring it back and just claim that he or she is mine alone. We could figure something out to where Tam could still get the family she had been dreaming of.
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Post by Tamara George on Aug 28, 2011 10:54:33 GMT -5
Tam shrugged.
"I don't know. I keep thinking maybe I should just...get rid of it...completely, you know my figure and everything are the only thing to me," She said tiredly, rubbing her temples. She didn't REALLY mean that, in fact, in a way it gave her a chance to be more than just that. Be something instead.
"You'd still have to explain it to Sage," She pointed out.
OOC: Sorry, crap post x.x
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Post by Semper Capone on Aug 28, 2011 14:33:26 GMT -5
"No!" I exclaimed in a panicked tone as soon as I heard the words come out of her mouth. She wasn't seriously thinking about killing the kid, was she? Noo, no, no, no Ripred no. "I know yer figure's important t' y' but y' can't jus'.... jus' kill an unborn person 'cause it'll distort yer figure for what, eight months?" I was sure to keep my voice down for obvious reasons, but also so I wouldn't come across as yelling at her. I continued my pleading. "I'll come up with some kind of story. I'll tell 'im that I went home too for a bit t' make sure thing's're right 'n' we'll see how things turn out. Y' can come back whenever y' feel yer ready." It was a bit drastic, but I didn't want to think of her killing the kid just because she wouldn't look picture perfect for however long it takes. Maybe I'm just too down-to-earth, but I was not going to stand for abortion.
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Post by Tamara George on Aug 29, 2011 16:06:30 GMT -5
"It's easy enough to say when you're not the one everyone's going to be staring at," She breathed, her head still sitting in her hands before closed her eyes.
"I'll be a crap mum, I'll prove everyone right and I'll fail, or...or...if there's something wrong with the kid, it'd be my fault because kids are your responsibility, you're supposed to look out for them and I would have messed it up from the start...I can barely look out for myself and...I couldn't dump that on you either, no matter what you think," She said quietly. She knew she probably wasn't making sense, the things she was saying kept conflicting with each other but...that was how her mind was going, so fast she couldn't decide what she wanted.
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Post by Semper Capone on Aug 29, 2011 18:54:37 GMT -5
There really was no use in trying to argue with Tam over her figure. It'd be stupid to let people's staring bother you when you were bringing a new life into the world. Though, here again, this was probably just me being down-to-earth. I gave a small, quiet sigh.
"Jus' don't let it bother y'. It's a kid, not some parasite makin' y' fat." I said calmly. Maybe not the best choice of words, but it made sense in my head. "Yer not gonna be a bad mother. It'll come naturally, 'n' I'm not tryin' t' sound sexist in any way." I paused a moment. "If y' really think y' can't do it, I'll take the kid. I helped take care of Raphael's kids long enough t' know how t' deal with 'em 'n' care for 'em."
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