Air Dublinesque [Chicago]

[Semper Capone]

I don't remember the last time I had cried. It seemed like so long ago.... so long ago that I seriously don't even remember the situation. And yet here I was, standing outside Chicago's door, eyes all bloodshot from mourning and lack of sleep. I bet I looked like a wreck, too, though I really didn't give a damn; right now I didn't care about anything. Other than my best friends, I was alone -- horribly and utterly alone in this unforgiving world. My grandparents were dead, my dad had had no brothers or sisters, so as far as I knew, the only family I had left were Chicago, Sage, Vince, Dream, and Sassifrass. And Bell and Rabbit, of course. And Bruce. And Diesel.

Running a hand over my head and down my face to try to keep myself awake enough to actually talk, I shook my head slightly and rubbed my red eyes, clearing my throat before reaching out and lightly knocking on the door. It was late at night so I didn't want to disturb anyone else; maybe Chicago was up so late doing homework. That seemed logical. She was involved in so many activities that I often wondered when she even had time to sleep. I put my hands in my pockets as I waited, sniffing and glancing off down the halls.





(( -death by fail post- ))

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I rubbed my eyes as I gave a small yawn in the computer chair. I usually like dow do my homework on my bed, but I hadnt been sleeping the last few nights (not that I usually got much sleep anyway, but still) so if I did my homework on my bed, I was likely to fall asleep simply because I wasnt allowed to. I had to finish my homework. And I was almost done. Not that it mattered, coz I knew the minute I was ready to go to sleep, I wouldnt be able to. Curse insomnia.

Getting up from my chair, I moved to the bathroom to splash some water on my face. Rolling the sleeves up to my elbows so they didnt get wet, I then turned on the tap and threw water in my face. Ow. Water in my eye. I grabbed the towel and rubbed my face dry then frowned into the mirror. Those dark circles were still there. Ack. Turning on my heel I walked back out to my room and heard a light knock on the door. Padding over to the door in my uggs, I opened it quietly to see Semp standing in the doorway. Suddenly my lack of sllep wasnt bothering me anymore. His eyes were all bloodshot and his hair was a mess. Opening the door wider, to let him in, I was worried. What was wrong? I had never seen him like this.

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outfit:cute jammies XD
notes: hope thats okay :S your post was great XD

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((S'good ^^ and I thought mine was awful. Dx ))




No one seemed to be in the hall this late. I bet the majority of the students were sleeping or studying, but there was always Sage that select few that would stay out late no matter what day it was. I, myself, was hardly ever out past nine or ten on weekends no matter what was going on. I always valued sleep over everything else in the night life, even above alcohol most of the time.

But for now, I really didn't care how much sleep I got. Yeah, eventually I'd just pass out due to exhaustion, but that wasn't about to come for a while. I figured I could still stay conscious for a day or two -- or however long it took for Chicago to answer the door. I wasn't going to blame her but it felt like she was taking forever; maybe my judgment is just off and it's really only been a few seconds rather than a few minutes.

I was looking down the hall when she opened the door, bringing me back around to see her. She looked tired and I instantly regretted disturbing her at such an hour, but then she stepped aside and held the door open wider. I didn't want to keep her up for so long but I really needed someone to vent to and I trusted Chicago with telling her all that was on my mind right now. After hesitating for a few moments I stepped into her dorm, being sure to duck my head so I didn't hit the door frame like I used to always do -- there's still scars on my forehead from it -- and headed forward a few steps before stopping. It was very warm in there and I liked that, though it didn't do much to cheer me up.

"Sorry t' bother you this late..." I said quietly and apologetically, keeping my eyes downcast momentarily before looking back up and over at her, hoping she wasn't mad at me.

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I was really worried as he stepped into the dorm, ducking his head on the way in. He always used to hit his head on the door frame. Closing the door behind him, I turned around to face him again. He looked like he needed to sleep. That made two of us, but right now I was more concerned about his needs than mine.

I managed a smile when he apologised for visiting so late. "Its fine. Really, dont worry about it."

[/s] I said. It really was alright. I wasnt going to sleep anytime soon. Moving around to stand infront of him, I looked up into his eyes. "Whats wrong Semper?"[/center]



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notes: your was good and i thought mine was awful And eugh... short post :S

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I wasn't really looking forward to ruining her evening with all my problems, but what else was I supposed to do? Bottling emotions up is never a good thing and I didn't know where Sage was, though I had already vented with him some before he had to leave. I didn't want to pin this all on Chicago but I really needed someone right now. I needed someone who, in the midst of my emotional roller coaster, could be steady and keep me grounded, and that was her. Chicago was my best friend and I didn't keep any secrets from her, so why was this any different? She'd quickly find out sooner or later on her own, so now would be the best time.

When she came around and looked up at my eyes, for some reason I just couldn't hold eye contact for more than a few seconds. I don't know, maybe I was just being all submissive because of how shitty I felt, but as my eyes cast their gaze downward, I felt incredibly small as I stood before her. Maybe I had slouched over like I usually do. I sniffed, deciding to just tell her. "M' dad was murdered yesterday..." I said quietly, the volume hardly above a hoarse whisper. For a moment I was scared that she hadn't heard me because I had spoken so softly, but I sensed that if I told her those exact words again, the truth of them would hit me like a truck and I'd fall though the thin ice that I was standing on.




((S'alright. x3 ))

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I frowned as he stuggled to hold eye contact. This was most definitely not good. I waited patiently for him to tell me what was up. Bracing myself for anything, literally anything, I held my gaze firm and steady, letting him know I was there for support in whatever situation.

When I heard him whisper the words, it felt like he had yelled, they hit me so hard. I had never met Semps father, but I knew he meant alot to him. My eyes filled with compassion as I though tabout how devastated I would be if my dad died, or was killed. How horrifying. There weren't even words to describe how he must feel. Knowing I couldn't really say anything that would make it better, I took that one step closer and closed the gap between us with a huge hug, wrapping my arems around him and pressing my head into his chest. Thats all I could really think of to do. If I was upset like that, I could really use a hug, so thats what I did.

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notes: I can never remember how tall semp is :S so i just kind of imagined him being not too much taller than her..even though i think he is :S

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(( x3 Yay giants? xD ))




The weight of my own words fell hard on me, threatening to pull me down like a lead weight. Dad was gone -- the only person I could really relate to and ask advice for anything -- he wasn't there anymore. Not only that, but he was the only one in the world that could tell me about my mother and who she was and things like that. Sure, the mythology teachers knew a lot, but they didn't know her personally; Dad did, but now all that knowledge is gone from the world. All the family I had left now were my few close friends.

Chicago closed the gap between us and put her arms around me. It took me a moment or two for my sluggish mind to register what she was doing, though I soon returned the hug by putting my arms tightly around her, shutting my eyes tightly against the ever-so familiar sting in the back of my eyes. Chicago didn't have to say anything to help me; as stupid as it sounds, just her embrace and presence was enough to keep me level-headed for a few minutes.

"Fuckin' land dispute." I muttered in a wavering tone. I fell silent for a few more moments before telling her about the upcoming week that I wasn't looking forward to. "I'm headed home next Friday.... 'n' since I can't find my damn keys or afford a plane ticket, Sage said he'd be willing to take me home. I don't trust myself drivin' anyway..." Part of me wanted to ask if she wanted to come, but in all seriousness, who would want to go on a cross country trip just to attend a funeral? Certainly that wouldn't be an enjoyable trip. And what was I to do with Bell and Rabbit? I guess Bell was already taken care of at the stable, but Rabbit was still too skiddish to probably survive a four day car drive. "Dunno what I'm gonna do with Rabbit, though...." The poor dog. She'd just have to endure the long car ride; I didn't want to just dump her off on Sassifrass or Vince or Dream. I didn't want to impose anything on anyone right now, really.

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