Requiem For A Dream [Kawaii]

[Semper Capone]

I never thought this would honestly happen. I mean, yeah, I knew she was the daughter of Aphrodite and she was... prone, for lack of a better word, to relationships. It was bound to happen... right? Not that I didn't think she was faithful or anything, but just... dammit. I sucked at this. No wonder she's in love with that Kaleb guy.

The evening sky was surprisingly clear for the most part aside from the red and orange clouds that were settled out on the horizon, the darkening blue sky painted with the vibrant colors. The reflection of the sky on the water was absolutely mesmerizing, but it did nothing to distract me from the heartache that literally hurt my chest. Despite the cold winter air, I trudged along the pier, ignoring the pain that the frigid weather had on the bare skin of my arms. I only had on a T-shirt, jeans, and boots, but I honestly didn't give a damn right now. My life was so screwed up and I wanted to set things straight, but first I needed to sort myself out.

No one else was on the pier, which made me really thankful. I highly doubt I'd be able to stand being around people until I figured this situation out, so for the time being I decided to just stay quiet. Once I reached the far end I climbed up onto the railing, sitting down on it and letting my legs dangle freely above the choppy salt water, rubbing my face with my hands.

I screwed up. I really did screw up. I lost the girl I loved most in this world to some... some... I don't know; all I know is the guy's name. I was honestly starting to believe that I had never been good enough for Chicago in the first place. Fucking hell, I'm just being pathetic.... but you can't step in the same river twice. I lost my chance with her and I knew I wasn't going to get it back no matter how hard I tried. It seemed that she really did like Kaleb, though, and I didn't want to ruin it for her if--... if fate had them put together.

"I'm jus' bein' immature 'bout this..." I muttered, putting my heels against a lower rail, my elbows on my knees and my head resting on my hands, fingers rubbing my temples. It hurt unbelievably bad to be forced to watch from the sidelines and deal with such heartache; there wasn't anything I could do but just pray that Kaleb didn't hurt her in any way. Maybe that's why it ended up like this: had I hurt her? Oh Ripred, to know that I had hurt her in anyway was just.... just more than torture.

For a brief moment, the thought to just fall forward into the icy ocean crossed my mind; all it would take is just a shift in my weight -- no, I shouldn't be thinking these things. But maybe she really was better off without me.... I certainly wasn't as witty, or as charming, or as charismatic as Kaleb was. No wonder she loves him.

"Y' never forget your first love, do y'?" I quietly asked no one in particular, removing my head from my hands so I could look up at the red and orange streaked sky. "I jus' hope he keeps her happy, whatever happens..."

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[hanatachibana]

One thing that I had not expected when transferring to Richmond High was the drama that was going to happen. Yeah, it was high school. In high school there was always drama. It had been naïve of me not to think that I would have to experience it at some point or another. I couldn’t help thinking though, that I had only been at the school for a week and already I had some guys interested in me and I was already immersed into drama between some other students. The one that was really bothering me was the issue between Semper and Chicago. I was really concerned because both of them were my squishie buddies, and they were supposed to be together. At least in my head anyway. But now Chicago was dating, or was thinking about dating some new guy at their school and Semper was really sad or so I had heard.

The weekend was fast approaching and I was feeling restless. I needed to get out and away from the drama. Just walking up and down the hallways in my dormitory I could feel the tension suffocating me like a plastic bag wrapped around my face. It wasn’t pleasant. My homework was done. Well, discounting that evil sadistic English homework of mine, my homework was pretty much done. It was time I did some exploring outside of Richmond High. The weather was a bit windy, which meant that the smart thing would be to wear something warm. I never found that fun, but it was practical. Was America making me practical? It was a scary thought.

It didn’t take me long to get dressed. It also didn’t take me long to find a bus that could take me to the beach I kept hearing so much about. Maybe it took thirty minutes to find one? I don’t remember. Oh well. Anyway, I let my thoughts wander when I had found a seat on the bus. With all of this stuff happening between Semper and Chicago, I found myself becoming more depressed over the situation. They were both a good couple, not to mention they were both beautiful in their own way. I couldn’t understand why anyone would cheat on a person that they “loved” if it was going to hurt both the cheater and the one being cheated on in the end. My naivety clouded my judgment on this matter. It just didn’t make sense to me at all.


((Will finish when I get home))

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